distraction

Its the end of a big year

its been real rough

its not over

almost

lost my work

lost my son

lost my mind

and I still find that

I'm easily distracted

easily led and

often inefficient

I was amazed

when I stopped work for a while

that there was so much to do

everywhere

how the hell

did I have any time to go to work in the first place?

and how in the hell do people who work

get anything done?

all the time in the world I have now

I lie in bed and look at the ceiling

peeling

put that on my list (did it)

I know what the answer is

meditation

just gotta make it a habit

unconscious.

before the day begins and

the distraction

takes over.

oh and exercise

if you can be bothered

and have had enough sleep.

so many rules.

Grief

I had the misery and fortune to attend a funeral today

and learn of a life lost early

to a chance accident

by an angry planet.

A young man

so funny

so full of life

was taken so soon.

I wept

everybody wept

 whilst the religious ceremony

talked endlessly of god.

I was angry

where was this god

who could allow such a heinous act

what a concept.

Its not enough when somebody is 14 

to say they died doing what they loved.

All that matters is they are not here

and there's nothing to fill the void.

So Alexi

you were loved by the people who knew you

and those that didn't.

and our hearts are broken.

Everybody who is a parent today

realised their worst nightmare

If you can please just simply

love those who are with you.

you never know when you or they

will be gone.