it was me

I have maybe what..

thirty light bulbs

that at any time

can burn in my home

thirty bulbs that can suck the earth of energy

heating its atmosphere

adding heat and carbon

to the powderkeg..

the bins were full of the detritus of consumption

neatly divided into recyclables,

and just general shit

you couldn't give to the worms

and I staggered

back into the house

after lugging the 4 bins

up the 8 steps to the lonely road.

the kids were asleep

the wife sick

the animals fed and 

I noticed something that I had overlooked.

strange how you could overlook anything

when the house burned so bright

the clarity 

incandescent burned on my retinas

all the fucking lights were on in the house 

for how long?

sometimes three to a room

sometimes ten.

so the next sunny day you have

when its unseasonably warm

blame me

and the light switch

I'm guilty.

of that

and probably many other things..